As I looked back this week on my accomplishment, I realized a major deal. I am HAPPY! I am not just talking about being happy with the weight loss, but in general I am happy. I am not really sure that in my life I have been happy. Oh I have had moments of happiness. I have had great times with friends, family and at work. I am talking about feeling happy in my soul for the first time in 40 years. I saw a picture of me taken when I was no more than 6 and you can see the sadness in my eyes even at that age.
Don't get me wrong I am still cute, but do I look happy? I don't thing so. Sad that at that young I was still not happy.
Since I have started on my journey to bring the sexy back, I have had to really sit back and think about my life and the choices that I have made that led me to where I am today. Since I was so unhappy, I ate. I felt it was the only thing that I could control and it ended up controlling me. I woke up thinking about food. I went to bed thinking about food. I also used to carry food with me, just in case.
Now don't get me wrong, I still think about food. It is different now though. I am not controlled by it anymore. Well not all the time at least. I have learned to make healthier choices. I love to exercise, although I am certain sometimes my trainer is trying to kill me. I have tons more energy now and I can feel my insides changing. I am willing to go out and do things now instead of just holing myself up in the house. I am also not willing to settle anymore in my relationships. I am worth more than just settling.
Here is a song I have currently become obsessed with. I guess it is my theme song. I am happy and not going back. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6Sxv-sUYtM
Peace out peeps. I got some happiness to deal with and I am getting ready for a mud run.
What an incredible milestone!! Congratulations! Your hard work is paying off, and you are literally 'working your butt off!' :)
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