The year I turned 40 or 40 is the new sexy beast.

Okay so this year I turned the big 40.  Instead of being depressed, upset, curled up in the corner mourning my youth, I decided to make a big change.  Now if you know me well, you know change is a scary thing for me.  I am not necessarily afraid of change, but I am a creature of habit and it stresses me out.  But, when I have made up my mind, nothing will stop me.  I changed my doctor, I had had the same doctor since I was 13, and I decided to get healthy.

The first thing I did was I took a trip for my birthday.  I went to San Francisco all by myself.  I had a blast and I am definitely going back.  I went to Alcatraz and the walk up the ramp to the cellblock nearly killed me.  The next time I go back, I am running up that ramp and I am going to make it my bitch.

The second thing is I went to Angela Lemond, more affectionately known as TFN.  She started me on the path to exercise and eating better.  I have to have someone to hold me accountable and she does that.  Because of this change, I blog, run, circuit train and eat better.  It is helping to make me a much better person.

The third thing is I have decided to exorcise old demons and start to get rid of my "Stinkin' Thinkin'."  I will no longer let my past have a hold on me.  We are all in the same game; just different levels.  Dealing with the same hell; just different devils. If I could go back in time and tell my teenage self something, it would be to not listen to those around you that put you down.  This includes members of my own family who told me I was not or never would be good enough.  You have to love yourself and you have plenty of people who love you just as you are.

Now since I have started my journey, I have developed muscles in places long covered with fat.  I have more stamina, not as much as I need, but more than I had at the beginning.  Camp Gladiator is one of the best things I have done this year.  Carrie Monroe works my butt off.  My fellow Gladiators are very supportive and I love them for that.  I have lost 33 pounds which is more than a container of kitty litter.  Now if you have ever picked up kitty litter you know how heavy that stuff is.  I was actually carrying that around on my body.  I still cannot believe that I was able to walk.

I am not going to make big New Year's Resolutions this year.  I am only going to make 6 weeks resolutions.  I resolved to lose 8 pounds by Jan. 31st and I have 7 more to go.  I also resolve to be the sexiest beast I can be to make all those guys who would not give me the time of day as a fluffy person drool and beg for forgiveness.

I will keep you updated on my progress.  Once I hit my first resolution I will post pics.

Peace out peeps.  I hope you have a great new year.  As I told my besties from high school the other day, we need to live long enough to become the Golden Girls and I call Blanche.